Happiness

This last weekend was General Conference. And it was great! Maybe as I get older I'm not worrying so much about keeping my children busy, entertained, making sure they're getting something out of it and instead focusing on me. Wrong? I don't know, but I know I sure was able to listen better than I have in the past, as they were in the room next door playing for half of it. :)

Anyway, Saturday morning session just screamed of happiness I felt. And how we need to have joy in our lives. That is something I've been struggling with lately. I blame hormones, but really, I've known I need to be better. About 2 weeks ago I made a bunch of "Be of good cheer" signs and hung them all around my house. Hoping that seeing that phrase all day will bury itself into my subconscious and I can be more cheerful and positive. So that's a good start, but I thought I'd share a few other thoughts from the general authorities on the matter.

I'm not really good at taking notes. I write down things I think, but I don't usually write down the quotes I like. I always figure I can go back and look at them and write them down, but I guess talk titles and transcripts are not up yet... So maybe this post will be expanded later, for now I'll include what I can -

President Uchtdorf asked why some feel joy in the gospel, and some feel it is lacking. It's true. You look at people at church, and some people just really enjoy it. And some feel bored with it. Or think that it needs to be 'updated.' I don't fall into the latter category, but I do feel the need to enjoy it more. I want to be one of those 'happy people.' He gave some great tips about focusing on the basic doctrines and starting where you are, not being frustrated you're not as smart or as good of a teacher as your husband. :) (or lots of times I feel myself thinking, 'you used to be so much better!' And it gets so frustrating that it almost stagnates you. Yeah, kids are hard. Yeah, it's a lot more difficult to have a quiet house for pondering or finding time to serve others outside of your home. I don't do all the things I used to do, but it doesn't mean I can't do my best to 'start where you are,' accept my stage of life for what it is and work with it)

Elder Ballard talked about key truths to hold onto. I felt like those are things I need to study deeper that President Uchdorf mentioned to help you find joy in the gospel. Basics. Foundation. I don't question my testimony in any of those things, but do I really study them? No, not really.

Maynes was all about  finding joy in living a Christ-centered life. He said our joy depends on how well we are centered in Christ. Okay. If I'm not feeling the joy I think I should have, I must not be centered enough on Christ. And need to ponder ways to improve.

Which led right into Lawrence's talk. Which was possibly my favorite. He asked us to ask, "What am I lacking?" So far in conference we had been taught that we should have joy in the gospel. Some of us feel it is lacking. I determined I am not centered enough on Christ. So what do I need to do? Well, Lawrence told us exactly what to do. I just felt the conviction I need to go to the Savior to really figure out what changes I need to make in my life. And as I am willing and act upon those 'customized' answers from the Holy Ghost, I will find that joy I am looking for. It's a bit intimidating. Because you almost feel like you're going to get swamped with things you should be doing better, but I liked in his talk he mentioned the Holy Ghost will be there to help you. You may feel inspired that you need to say 'thank you' more. And then he said, that may lead you to something more challenging, 'saying sorry.' I feel confident as I approach the Lord with my desire to improve I will be directed in the best possible way for me to progress. I will know what order to focus my efforts.

And so we ended with Elder Cook just confirming what I had felt and been taught. We will receive happiness if we hunger and thirst after righteousness. I'm on the right path. I have that 'hunger,' I know what I need to do, and have been promised once again as I do that, follow that path, I will have happiness.

I do realize I missed two talks in this session. I just didn't get to listen to them because of those children I mentioned. But looking forward to going back and listening to them. And I bet I can find more ways for me to be happy. :)

So, to summarize my thoughts:

President Uchtdorf - "Do you have joy?"

Me - "No."

Elder Ballard - "Hold onto key gospel truths."

Elder Maynes - "Your happiness is directly related to how centered on Christ you are."

Me - "Okay. So to be happier I need to study basic gospel principles and get my life more centered on Christ."

Elder Lawrence - "Is there something you need to work on?"

Me - "Yes! I just said I need to study gospel principles and get my life more centered on Christ. How do I do that?"

Elder Lawrence - "Well, go to the Lord. Ask him what you need to do, or stop doing, and then be willing to accept the answer you get. The answer will be personally fit for you.

Me - "Yes! Okay!"

Elder Cook - "Good. You got it? Happiness is achieved by hungering and thirsting after righteousness."

Me - "Got it. Will do."

One other comment from Elder Cook I liked is he mentioned if we can resist something once, it will be easier to resist it later. So just naturally I know some of the things I should change in my life. For example, watching that extra tv show at night instead of getting to bed early, or using that as time to study the gospel. But it's hard. Because watching a show is so relaxing. And you don't want to have to think, or go to bed because that means morning is that much closer and you just don't feel ready for another day. But, if I can resist it that first time, then the next day, maybe it will be easier. And after a couple weeks of resisting, I'm not going to be tempted anymore. Elder Eyring said something along the same lines. He said when we have the Holy Ghost with us good things are more appealing and wicked things are not enticing. Not that watching tv is always wicked. But, that's where I'm at in my journey. I'm not struggling with the bigger sins. It is time to perfect myself. And that means stop wasting my time at night. I hope that I can get to the point where it doesn't even appeal to me. Instead, reading gospel books or studying the scriptures just sounds better.

Anyway, things for me to do. Wish me luck. It's always easy to be motivated right at first. I hope by writing all these things down it is one more groove in my determination to follow through. :)

Let's all put in the effort to get to the point where we can be truly happy!